Fascinating

For most of my life, I thought that I would probably never have kids. I'm not sure why. I always liked other people's kids. I just wasn't itching to have a child of my own. It may be because I've always felt like a kid myself and knew that I'd have to grow up if I ever had one. Either way, God had a different plan. Suzii and I had a little boy, Cooper, almost 2 years ago and Every Single Day has been fascinating to me. Yep, it's true. I turned into one of those sappy parents who "makes over" every little thing their kid does. But it truly is fascinating to watch someone grow and learn and explore. It's amazing to me to hear him begin to put words together into sentences. And when he can't say all the words to the sentence he's trying to say...he improvises with "diggle digga digga...juice".

Tonight I asked Cooper if he was ready for bed. He got down from his momma's lap and walked over to the stairway gate...looked back at Suzii and said, "momma..nite nite". He then groggily waddled up the stairs and into his room...turned around and climbed up in my lap so that we could have our prayer time together. As simple as that little accomplishment sounds...I was fascinated. This little person who seems to need so much guidance and direction...to feed him, change his clothes, etc., knew exactly what to do and when.

God has continually revealed Himself to me through this parenthood journey...and I'm doing my best to embrace every moment so I don't miss it.

So God tonight I thank You for trusting me enough to bless me with the life of a little boy to mold, train, teach, and model for. I'm overwhelmed with love for this little guy and am amazed by him every other minute. I know that the way I am moved by him doesn't even scratch the surface of how You feel about me and that is unfathomable. Thank You God. You truly are good and Your love endures forever.