Surrender

Surrender... Total surrender to God's will for your life. Sounds glamorous and spiritual doesn't it. "I'm just surrendered to whatever God wants to do". I'm sure I've said it a thousand times before. But how glamorous and easy is that statement when you find yourself enduring something you don't want to endure. What happens when your "surrender" leads you into a firey furnace. What happens when God asks you to wait...patiently wait.

It's hard. That's what. Or as my drummer would say, "Dass wassup". I feel sort of like I'm sure my little boy feels when he asks for a cookie right before dinner and I tell him "no". He knows that cookies in general are o.k. 'cause I've given them to him before. And he's hungry so surely daddy will feed me. But knowing what's best for him I say No or Not right now. He doesn't like it. Sometimes he even gets a little fussy about it. I don't expect my 2 year old to act all giddy when I tell him no. I don't expect him to look at me and say "Ok Dad...No problem...I feel great about your decision." I simply expect him to obey...not lash out at me or his mother...and eat what I have prepared for him.

So I don't like it. I'm even a little fussy. But today I'm sitting in my high-chair with my bibb on eating what God has prepared for me. Today it's a plate full of valuable stuff. There's a good portion of patience, a side of humility, and a little pile of "trust me". I can see on the counter the sweet yet small portion of encouragement dessert...He even let me lick the spoon from it after I calmed down from my "cookie" fit.

God is always good. He is my Father. He knows what I need and when I need it.

God, help me rest in that.
johnny